Stress

This has been a strange month and a half filled with lots of stress, both bad and good, but stress none the less.

This month, out of the blue, I got a teaching job!  This is, without question, the biggest source of stress.  I'm beyond excited for my new job, the students seem to be awesome, but like any new job, it's a lot of learning and figuring things out and I'm doing that as I go.

This month also forced me to say goodbye to my sweet Avery.  I never thought I'd be so devastated by losing a cat or that I'd feel her loss so much but even as I write this, one week later, I still cry over her. I find myself looking for her sometimes and I still expect to find her sleeping on my bed or waiting for me to feed her.  I can't even begin to express how much I miss her.

 

 

Hollyn's birthday was also last week and now I'm faced with having a 1 and a 2 year old at the same time.  There's no way that she could possibly be 1 already and the joy of watching her grow and learn is crossed with bitter-sweet reminder that she is growing up.

 

 Will is growing like crazy and the amount of things he learns and says every day astounds me.  I feel like there is something new every 5 minutes with him!  Along with this has come the phase of asking "why" and telling me "I don't want to" both in a very annoying, whiny voice. I'm praying this is a very quick phase since it irritates me to no end.

 

He is the most amazing big brother and his love for Hollyn is amazing.  He likes to call her "Baboo" and she even answers to it now.  He is one of the goofiest, most animated kids I have ever seen and he keeps us laughing hysterically.

 

 This month also brings a busy time for Timo and I.  Timo has also started school and is coaching football again this year. It makes me dread the fall a little bit because we go from summers of nothing to hitting the ground running.

Along with teaching, I'm still knitting and selling my hats and still trying to keep our house functional. It's a work in progress for sure.  I've also dropped 10 pounds over the last month and I'm now starting to feel like all the hard work I've done all summer actually means something.  I still have a bit to go but I'm moving in the right direction and plan on staying that way.

I also turn 30 at the end of the month, but that's another story that will not even be discussed.

Through it all, I'm trying to remember to breathe, be thankful for what I have and what I've been blessed with and enjoy the little moments with things get too big.